i understand

dreams of drowning
but not necessarily in water
trapped in rooms that look familiar
but not completely recognizable
locked doorknobs with missing locks
and my name being called from the other side
fumbling, trembling, struggling to get out
repeating mundane tasks
to the point 
to the point
to the point
to the point
of insanity
"what's the point of everything?"
dreams of you hurting people
people i don't know
people i knew before
while i watch, i step back, i say,
"it's okay. i understand."