update

there is no silence here. the noise of transportation is everywhere. next to the highway and under the planes. surrounded by the sounds of destination, tempted by these man made machines to run away when i can't use my God given feet. the world is moving - arriving and leaving. i'm sitting in a lawn chair on a second floor balcony absorbing. can barely focus on the present long enough to listen and understand. just searching for silence that isn't here. all i can hear is movement and all i feel is paralyzed.